pre season hockey!

Well, it's been another week since I last wrote (it has gone by fast, I guess). I've had a pretty drastic change in emotion. The Eagles lost on Monday, school has been p and down (down right now because I have a lot of government homework and no time to do it), and yesterday at our football game I was kind of sad for some reason.
There's a lot to say about my crush. Right now I'm kind of in the mood that I realize just how unlikely it is that anything will ever happen between us. She's just too popular and so gorgeous that she can have pretty much any guy she wants to. And why would that "any guy" ever be me? I don't know, I think about her too much, I guess. Everyone, including her, has mentioned me taking someone else to homecoming but I really don't have a plan or an interest in that. It was sort of an all or nothing type deal and I got nothing. Am I mad about it? Absolutely not. Just read my last entry. But right now I just feel pathetic and foolish about thinking of this girl all the time when she probably doesn't care too much about me. Don't get me wrong, I really like her. Why else would I still have her on my mind constantly after months of disinterest on her part? And it's not her fault I like her so much and she doesn't like me so I really don't want people to think she's nothing short of amazing. She's a great person and still talks to me every once in a while, which makes me feel so good. She didn't really say anything to me at the game and all I wanted to do since I saw she was there was to go up to her and tell her how wonderful she looked (and boy did she look STUNNING!).
I guess I'm just a dreamer. Dreaming is great except for the times when you wake up and realize that it's not real. That part really sucks. But then you go back to sleep and continue to dream and you feel even better about it. Well, there's a whole lot more to say but I'm going to leave it at this and go to sleep thinking of my dream girl.
Hold on! I'm not going to leave out the Flyers, who won their preseason opener! I listened to part of the game on the radio and it felt good to be hearing hockey again. I also watched Notre Dame come back and lose in OT. I'm not a big college football fan but I do like the Irish. And the Phillies won too...they're fightin for a wild card spot!

GO EAGLES! (tomorrow they're beating the Niners)
Only 19 days til Flyers Hockey (that counts!)!